Just another day in paradise – LOL!

Started a new medication today – number 8 – feel like I could open a pharmacy. LOL! I went for a walk today and realized just how badly this latest condition has affected my entire being and health.

God willing with prayer, good medical care and the right medications in the right doses and my getting back on my supplement program I will be feeling improved in the future. That is my prayer and hope.

And thank you all for your prayers, encouragement and support. God bless!

Humbled by His Grace,

Just a Pilgrim,

Harold
Philippians 1:21

Looking for an answer – Waiting on the Lord

“But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31 (KJV).

My life is in a holding pattern right now, waiting on the Lord and seeking answers to my latest health challenge. How I thank God for his person, presence and power…for his love, mercy and grace in my life. “Because He lives” I make it through each day and “because He lives” I can and will face tomorrow”, what ever it might bring.

So my dear friends and followers “Share the Hope! Keep the Faith! And Feel the Love!” (Tony Michalski)

I love and appreciate you all.

Humbled by His Great Love!

I’m just a pilgrim,

Harold
Philippians 1:21
haroldcameron56@gmail.com

“Home” by Philip Phillips (Drop by any time you’d like)

To my dear followers – I “Just” (want you to) “know you’re not alone, because I’m going to make this place your home.” Feel free to drop by any time you would like.

If you want to leave me a note please email me at haroldcameron56@gmail.com. Please allow me a few days to respond back to you if you do write me.

Thanks to all the people who have stood by me

Thank you to all of you who have stood by me through the good times and the bad times…through the happy and the sad times. I love and appreciate you all. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Us-TVg40ExM

Good News…Bad News (Update about my health)

Hello,

First the good news…I am going to live a while longer…if God is willing that is. To be very candid with you the way I have been feeling recently…to be absent from this diseased weary old body and present with the Lord would be an awesome thing. But God must still have something for me to do as I am still here.

Now the bad news…I have developed a new life altering medical condition that explains why I have been feeling the way that I have only recently…extremely tired, lack of interest in doing the things I once loved and enjoyed, experiencing memory-cognitive problems and suicidal ideation. It has felt like I have lost a part of my mind-memory and it has been very frustrating for me to deal with. And to be very clear…suicide is not the way that I want to die. Far be it from me to do so considering the fact that I am a lover and disciple of Jesus Christ. And yes, Christians DO get depressed, DO develop mental illness and CAN be suicidal without being in sin. I know there are some people who will disagree with me on that but oh well…read your Bible again and learn my brothers and sisters in Christ who disagree. Also read the book, Broken Minds by Steven Bloem and published by Kregel Publishing for more insight and invaluable information concerning Christians and depression/Mental Illness.  Christians being human living in a sinful fallen world can and do experience both physical and mental illness. I know because I am one.

So now I have 2 brain tumors, a Bi-Polar Manic Depressive Disorder diagnosis for which I take a number of medications for and now a new and yet to be determined disorder that is having a profound effect on my entire life existence. It has yet to be determined because we have to decide whether my problem is with my Pituitary Gland or Thyroid Gland or both.

So…

More tests in the near future coming and then a determination as to what to do to try and resolve the problem…if it is possibe to do so. And if I only had 2 brain tumors and that is all I had then I would only have to deal with certain symptoms on a frequent basis such as balance issues, hearing deficit, memory and cognitive function and intracranial pressure. And the medications I take for my brain tumors cause fatigue, balance issues, and cognitive-memory problems. Then the Bi-Polar Condition causes mood swings, from high to low. And being Bi-Polar has its own set of symptoms to deal with some which are the same as of having a brain tumor. And the medications I take for that also affects me causing me to feel tired, could contribute to the balance problems I have, depression as well as cognitive-memory problems. And now what ever I ultimately have with this new condition also has been causing me severe fatigue (worse than I used to experience, depression, memory and cognitive issues as well as a few other symptoms that are not debilitating but are just a nuisance. The one thing all of this helps me understand is why I have not been able to write any book or music reviews or be on the computer for any length of time lately. It just has not been possible for me.

So, new light has been shed on what is going on with my body that has led me to this place where I am at today. I will know more after I see the doctor next week, he is off today, and get whatever tests done that need to be done to determine the best plan of attack. The doctor’s office advised if I experience any symptoms that require hospitalization to go to the emergency room to be treated and possibly admitted into the hospital. I have my orders from my doctor and I will follow them so if you email me or call me and do not get a response within 3 business days you can call my cell phone and if I am in the hospital my son will be able to give you the information.

I’m reminded of the Scripture, “Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.” James 1:2-3.

I am rejoicing in my God and his goodness and praying for his guidance as I enter yet another phase of my life.

I love and appreciate you all!

Hope yours is a blessed Memorial Day weekend!

Amazed by His Grace,

Harold
Philippians 1:21
(267) 357-1292

“It is good for me that I was and am afflicted…”

“It is good for me that I was (and am) afflicted, that I might learn your (God’s) statutes.” (Psalm 119:71 ESV).

“So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited.” (II Corinthians 12:7 ESV).

Oh how great and lavish and so undeserved is the love and grace of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. He does not leave us or forsake us to our own sins, vices or behaviors, but rather, as a Father with their child, he doth tenderly care for us and nurture us through all the days and seasons of our lives…whether they be good and filled with good health, joy and prosperity or with affliction, suffering and want. There is ONE thing that can remain true in both sets of circumstances…we can still experience joy. We can experience joy because God has so favored us that he wants to prune as as a plant so that we might blossom into something beautiful and useful for him and his Kingdom. Our suffering is not for God’s pleasure or our pain; but rather, for God’s glory and our good. AMEN!

Due to what has happened only recently, I feel (and I mean this sincerely and with no humor intended) that I have lost a part of my mind…the part that affects how I think and function. It is hard to explain unless you have been through it but it is an experience common to people with brain tumors, traumatic head injuries and even Bi-Polar Manic Depressive Disorder, which I have only recently been diagnosed with and have started treatment for.

I do need to find a specialist who understands and treats Bi-Polar disorder as my life has been the most challenging it has since I first was diagnosed and began treatment for the tumors. What is happening to me is called ”rapid cycling” and it is just horrible to live with but please, I ask you please, do not pity me or feel sorry for me as I am not trying to elicit that response from you. Although I hate how I feel and I do…I want to give glory to my Lord and boast in him for his grace is sufficient, his love fully satisfies, his mercy covers my sins, and he is teaching me a joyful endurance in him and because of him through this time.

It has slowed me down significantly which is why I will no longer be posting regularly on my blogs and social media sites such as Facebook. Twitter or LinkedIn. At least not for now as I just can’t. To even create and type this blog post was a major chore for me…something i could have easily done in the past in a matter of a few minutes, now took me much longer and effort to accomplish.

So, if I can impart any word of encouragement or comfort to you as my reader it is this…

• Nothing can or ever will separate us from the love of God (Romans 8:39)
• All suffering is good suffering if it is prayerfully yielded to our loving Heavenly Father and it causes us to personally praise him as well as share our praise of him with others. (Genesis 50:20), and “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.” (Jeremiah 29:11 ESV).

So God bless and keep you in his tender love and care. Please know how much I love, care for and appreciate each and every one of you as my friends and “followers.”

Amazed by his Grace,

Harold
Philippians 1:21
haroldcameron56@gmail.com

Abundant Living – Carl F. H. Henry

“The whole secret of abundant living can be summarized up in this sentence: “Not your responsibility but your response to God’s ability.” Carl F.  H, Henry (1913-2003) American evangelical theologian

Bible Truth Behind the Quote:

Paul, who knew he was weak in himself, said, “I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.” (Philippians 4:13)

God’s power is “made perfect” in human weakness. (II Corinthians 12:9)

For more quotes like these check out 1001 Unforgettable Quotes About God, Faith, & The Bible by Ron Rhodes and published by Harvest House Publishers.

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